Caitlyn

For a long time, I kept asking God, “Why? Why are You letting me go through this pain? Why do You keep allowing him to hurt me?”

I couldn’t understand why it felt like my prayers for my relationship weren’t being answered. But one night, after praying deeply and surrendering everything to Him, I finally saw it clearly: If God had fixed everything in my relationship right away, or helped me get over it quickly, I would’ve had no reason to truly seek Him or grow closer to Him.

It was through the heartbreak, the tears, and every time my boyfriend hurt me or let me down, that I found myself turning back to God. And that’s exactly what God wanted: for me to realize that only He — not anyone else — can truly fulfill me and bring me peace.

Looking back now, I see that the pain wasn’t to destroy me, but to draw me closer to Him. If it weren’t for the heartbreak, I wouldn’t have surrendered my heart so fully. I wouldn’t have felt the deep love, peace, and strength that come only from Him.

Now, I feel happy, peaceful, and confident that God truly knows what He’s doing — even when I couldn’t see it at the time. What I thought was breaking me was really saving me and leading me back to Him.