Beth

A testimony from a mama’s heart: I was excited about life. I had so many dreams and goals. I was excited about my new career path. I was 44 years old, had just finished school, and was doing internship jobs as a certified drug and alcohol counselor part-time, as well as massage therapy part-time.

I’d just finished the process of becoming a foster mom, and I was elected as the Closet Coordinator at the homeless shelter. I was the nursery leader at my church and worked in prison ministry at the county jail. I led a bible study every week for the last three years.

My life was full of life and laughter, yet I constantly worried about my son. I was a single mother, and my son was 23. He was in a toxic relationship, and he was masking his pain with alcohol and marijuana. He was recently saved, and I knew God had him, but it still hurt me to see him hurting.

His girlfriend wanted to keep him away from me, and sometimes, she was able to. He still loved me, but I felt like I was losing him. All I did was pray for him every day. Then, during the summer of 2020, I became sick. I was weak and worn out from doing even the smallest task - I went to hospitals, countless doctors, had numerous tests done, but years went by with no answers.

I questioned why God wanted me to go through this. Eventually, I had to accept that this was his plan and purpose for my life. In December of 2022, I was finally diagnosed with ME/CFS.

I continued to decline and became bedridden on July 4, 2023. My son was in another toxic relationship, and I missed him so much. I never stopped praying for him. We still talked, but not as much as we used to. I especially missed talking about God with him. We had so many conversations about God.

Then, in December 2023, my son came home. He broke up with his girlfriend and surrendered his life back to Jesus. We became so close again, but I knew deep down that he was still sad and struggling. He moved out in April, started a new job, and that is where he met his wife.

They both grew closer to God in their relationship - it was so beautiful to watch. My prayers for my son were not only answered, but God did exceedingly and abundantly more than I had asked. He brought him the most beautiful, sweetest, caring woman in the world.

My heart is so full. I have lain here in my bed for a year and a half, and I still miss my life every day. I lost all of my independence, but still, I wouldn’t trade it for the world because of where my son is at now. God gave me the most amazing son anyone could ask for, and I couldn’t be any more blessed.

We are closer than ever, and we talk all the time. He comes over every week. We always talk about God and what he has been doing in our lives, and it is so beautiful. I am amazed and overjoyed to see how God has answered my prayers. I used to wonder why God didn’t heal me, especially when so many people were praying for my healing, but now I see that he has healed me. He healed a mama’s heart.

Ephesians 3:20 - Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.