Torrey R. James

This is easy for me to share, but only because I believe in Jesus. I have had 6 to 8 years of experience in a spiritual mind battle. I was convicted of being a pedophile and having severe lust issues.

The spiritual battle remains, because in my fear, I chose death instead of life. My lust was so bad I couldn't control it. It bred in my mind like it says sin breeds sin. I tried on my own to stop and failed each time. I even wanted to give up and just accept that's what I was. I believed that Jesus could take it away from me, but I had doubts, and to be honest, I still do.

But I always say to myself that Jesus is with me, and is working a work in me, although I don't know what it is. I don't feel the lust trying to consume me. Do I believe I can still fall short and drift back into it? I don't know.

But I do know that I was attracted to little kids in a sexual way. I want people to know that Jesus loves everyone, including me. He has changed me and moved me. I was really passive about my beliefs, and I still am, but I am trying to get more Jesus in my life. I like to see him move among people in the world.

I am telling you, my lust was pretty bad, and I believe he delivered me from it. I don't feel ashamed for sharing this. He loves me, convicted by the spirit of being a pedophile, and He has changed me. This is spiritual to me. Believe me, choose life.

I hope this helps somebody who is struggling with something that they don't understand why. Just remember Jesus loves you more than anything.